Second Chance?

So I have just got from Men's Camp.
And i am exhausted/tired/drained BUT i am blessed and that makes up for it all
I got to hang out with my dad for a bit at camp and I thank God.

God has revealed things to me this weekend.
The people I talked to, including my dad, have helped me realize this.
I praise Him for it for that is what I have been praying for for quite a while.
But it isnt such a happy topic.

So what I wanted to talk about this time was God's will.
But it is a bit more specific than that.
Recently, I have truly tried to step into God's will and wanted to live by what he wanted me to do.
Last time, I talked about the different choices that people can choose in God
and having the reasoning to be able to move in God without specific, implicit directions from Him.

This time I want to talk about using God's will for your own benefit.
Some may ask "What the heck does this mean? I thought God wanted to benefit us."
He does. He has the greatest plan in mind for us.

Jeremiah 29:11
"'For I know what I have planned for you,' says the Lord. 'I have plans to prosper you, not to harm you. I have plans to give you a future filled with hope.'"

But now the problem is when we will tweak God's will because we think that we know better.
These things can happen when we are scared of what God is telling us to do, or just dont understand God's bigger plan.
At the moment, I have been suffering greatly for trying to change God's will.
God told me to do something. But now, this weekend, I realized that I took it farther than He wanted because I thought that i knew better. It wasnt apparent at first because I have already tricked myself into believing that God has told me what i thought.
The All Knowing Heavenly Father told me something, and I, the know nothing person, decided that wasnt good enough.
When I look back, I want to punch myself for being so stupid and egotistical.
If I had followed God's will without changing it, I wouldnt have hurt some people i care about.
I came to this realization as I talked to my dad. It was actually heart wrenching as it slowly sunk in that it was all my fault.
My dad actually called me stupid... hahaha yeah you just read it right
At first i was so angry because i truly tricked myself into thinking I did exactly as God wanted me to do.
Then my dad reminded me what Jeremiah 29:11 was truly about.
Since I rededicated, i was so enthralled with that verse.
But i missed an important part when it came to this situation.
"I have plans to prosper you, not to harm you."
What I did for "God's will" actually hurt me a lot. So if i actually focused, i would have seen that it couldnt have been God. He doesnt hurt you. He wants to see you happy.
Dang... crazy slap in the face for me.

Now if this was the ending of the story, this would be a sad story, and i wouldnt be writing about it.
Because none of this would be to the glory of God. It would be about the human mistakes that i have made using the name of God's will.

Now is the part when God's power and love shows.
God's will is all powerful. Nothing we do can change the outcome.
God truly cares about us
no matter what we do, he can work with us.
No matter what we do, he will never stop loving us.

When i realized that I messed up bad, I could imagine God just shaking his head saying
"David... really? Alright I'll fix it"
So now God has reopened the door that I thought I have closed.
No one can open doors that the Lord has closed
No one can close doors that the Lord has opened.
Yes, it is painful right now, but it wouldnt have been if I havent screwed up.
But right now, I thank God for opening this door again.
I thank Him for giving me the second chance.

And hopefully I would get the second chance that i dont deserve from her